'I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. It didn’t make for an interesting person. I didn’t want to be interesting, it was too hard. What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.'
— Charles Bukowski, Women
derangement

sassykardashian:

I’m at that point in a semester where if a car hit me, I’d probably say thank you to the kind stranger

'Many people, myself among them, feel better at the mere sight of a book.'
— Jane Smiley, Thirteen Ways of Looking at the Novel
''Long ago,' he said, 'long ago, there was something in me, but now that thing is gone. Now that thing is gone, that thing is gone. I cannot cry. I cannot care. That thing will come back no more.''
— F. Scott Fitzgerald, Winter Dreams
'

What if love is made and nothing else?
asked Narcissus, leaning over the green iris of water.

Nothing else,
cried Echo from the green cochlea of the woods.

And they were both right.
And they were both lonely.

'
— Kapka Kassabova
'There is no abstract art. You must always start with something. Afterward you can remove all traces of reality.'
— Pablo Picasso
'You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch. Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable thing in the world, but it’s really just a habit. Thirty days without it, and you would be fine. You think you have a soul mate, but in fact you could have had any number of spouses. You would have evolved differently, but been just as happy.
You can change what you want about yourself at any time. You see yourself as someone who can’t write or play an instrument, who gives in to temptation or makes bad decisions, but that’s really not you. It’s not ingrained. It’s not your personality. Your personality is something else, something deeper than just preferences, and these details on the surface, you can change anytime you like.
If it is useful to do so, you must abandon your identity and start again. Sometimes, it’s the only way.
Set fire to your old self. It’s not needed here. It’s too busy shopping, gossiping about others, and watching days go by and asking why you haven’t gotten as far as you’d like. This old self will die and be forgotten by all but family, and replaced by someone who makes a difference.
Your new self is not like that. Your new self is the Great Chicago Fire—overwhelming, overpowering, and destroying everything that isn’t necessary.
'
— Julien Smith, The Flinch

me at 10 pm:
i should start heading to bed so i can wake up for school tomorrow

me at 11 pm:
i need to head to bed now

me at 12:
im going to regret this tomorrow

me at 3 am:
no point sleeping now

me at 5 am:
i could take a quick nap

me at 7 am:
who the fuck let me stay up last night?

'I take great care of myself by carefully shutting myself away.'
— Vincent van Gogh, Letter from Vincent van Gogh to Theo van Gogh